Why is it that it's so hard to write about what I feel even though I know that my thoughts are brimming over to escape? Maybe it's because of all these built-in checks that seek to ensure that what one says is appropriate for the image that one wants others to see. I hope that this exercise in writing will help me get over these qualms because I want to write about things that are rather uncool in today's cynical and superficial world. I want to write about what happiness means to me, and to write about the difficulties in pursuit of that happiness.